Wednesday, 22 May 2013

ME | Update and adios!

Hello my lovelies! I just wanted to check in before I check out and go away! 

I have just got back from the most wonderful few days with Ben. I had the best time and I cannot wait to do it again soon! I kept beating his scores on Forza and I went and watched him and his friends play football, we watched way too many films, watch the season finale of Arrow and the most recent Game of Thrones and I just couldn't be happier!

(Trigger warning)

I go away on holiday on Friday and this is the first time I have been on holiday since I started harming. However, I feel like I am ready. Mentally I am in a very stable place at the moment, I haven't been having my nightmares, I have been finished with school for nearly a week, I am on very good terms with my family at present and I feel a lot better. My head is never going to be 100% better anymore, and I have accepted that, but I feel like if I can overcome this hurdle, I can do anything. I went to Rocky Horror Picture show on Friday and I went as Columbia so obviously all my scars were on show. However, I knew people were staring and it got to me a little, but I didn't care. I was having a good time, I was a little tipsy and I was shouting, singing and laughing along with one of my favourite musicals. This holiday is going to be difficult, but I know I can do it!

So much is going to be happening and I am so so excited! Holiday Friday, start driving when I get home, hopefully planning a holiday with Ben and his parents, seeing friends, getting drunk...this is the happiest I have been in a long time and I cannot wait for summer!

If I do not get a chance to post before I go on holiday, I hope everyone has a great half term, I wish everyone the best with their exams, finals etc and I shall see you all soon with pictures and more!

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