Wednesday, 1 January 2014

ME | my 2013 story.

I know everyone will be doing this sort of thing, and after a while you might get bored of reading them, but 2013 has been such a roller coaster I wanted to write a post about it. I am not going to be one of those people that does the same old 'new year new me' sort of thing, I just want to make a few alterations to my life in order to finally start enjoying my life, and I don't think that is too much.

2013 saw me finish the IB and not get into university because I didn't get the grades I needed, saw me find true love, leave one job and gain two, have two adorable little kittens and tragically lose one, acquire 3 tattoos that I can't wait to add to, has seen me go nearly 8 months without any self harm, turn 18 (finally!!), take a lead role in a pantomime, visit the other side of the world and freeze there, lose weight and gain it back again, go on two family holidays, go to my cousins engagement party, say goodbye to my friends as they went to university, make new friends and lose some too, go to my leavers ball and have the night of my life, seen several hair colours and styles, said goodbye to too much money, become slightly more organised with a Filofax, start learning to drive, buy myself an iPad and too many nail varnishes, go out for my first weekend in Weymouth, Ben taking over 500 selfies on my phone when I leave it alone...so many things have happened, both good and bad. But that is how a year should be - there should be ups that we love and treasure and downs that we learn from and grow from. 

The good bits have been amazing and have helped me so much to overcome everything, the downs have been awful and I wonder how I have made it this far. I owe so much to my friends for all the support and love they have given me, and to Ben for always being there unconditionally and always doing what he can to make me feel better. I don't want to make resolutions or promises for the new year ahead because knowing me I will either forget or break them, I just want to try and be a better and happier person by overcoming my hurdles and my past. That's all I need this year, everything else is a want. Sometimes one small need is larger than any number of wants, and I want to try and remember that. I want to try and appreciate things for what they are, be more sensible with money, move out finally, try to be more honest about my feelings...but the only thing I need is to be happier and accept the past as the past.

I wish everyone every happiness in 2014 and that you enjoy every moment of it like you deserve to.
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  1. Was not boring to read at all, its so nice that you feel like you are able to post stuff like this on your blog. It makes you much more relatable!
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    1. thank you very much, what is the point in hiding your past? it is in the past for a reason so i do not mind if people know anymore. obviously there are some things that only close friends and ben know but apart from that i am an open book!

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