Thursday, 1 January 2015

welcome to the new year.





firstly, a very very happy new year to all of you! i hope that this new year brings you everything you desire, and that no matter what happens you come out of it smiling. like most people, i haven't had the best year, but like most people i will be making resolutions. well, one. i decided that i wasn't going to try and do this whole 'new year new me' thing because it has never worked in the past, and i would rather put my determination and will to something good. i have decided to only make one promise to myself this year and that is to move out and live on my own by the end of the year. i wanted to promise myself to do it before summer, but i already have something in the works for before then that involves money, so i want to be completely independent by the end of the year. it is a perfectly achievable goal for me, as i am working hard and going to be saving more, and there are plenty of opportunities, and i know i won't be doing it alone as i will have support from people in my life, so i am excited to be working towards this. every day when i am at work, and i feel like i don't want to be there, all i will have to do is think about this goal and i will know it will all be worthwhile in the long run. obviously in an ideal world i wouldn't be living on my own, but thats okay, ben can come and join me when he is ready. if i had to make another promise to myself, and i will be trying to do this but not making the dedication like my resolution, is to treat every day like a new day. if i have a few days off in a row i do not want to do the same thing every day. i want to be able to live each day differently - maybe one day go out and do something by myself and try to conquer my anxiety step by step, or surprise ben with a visit. my only resolution is to move out, but i also want to try and live fully, as i feel i didn't do that last year. i didn't know what i wanted from 2014 - at the beginning of the year i was working two jobs which then went downhill very quickly, i wasn't saving money and i couldn't afford anything i wanted, i was unhappy every day and was still self harming. this year will be different. it will.

i hope everyone had a wonderful new years eve and that you aren't all too hungover today. i wish you all a prosperous new year.
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