Wednesday, 14 February 2018

IT'S TIME TO SELF LOVE

For as long as I can remember I have struggled with body image and body confidence. I have never been truly happy with how I looked. I would try everything I could, but I would either give up because I was lazy/tired/bored or find myself with someone who said they loved me for who I was so then I felt no need to change as I was pleasing them as I was.

I was bullied mercilessly in school for too many years (8, but who is counting) and it didn't matter if it was said to my face or behind my back it still played a massive part on how I felt. I was made fun of through middle school for how I looked (one particularly horrid occasion was on a French school trip I did not go on. I suffered with some upper lip hair then and whilst some of my classmates were on this French trip, they stood next to a statue of a certain German in a war museum and said "look it's Millie). I was too tall, too fat, I wore glasses, I wore the wrong clothes, I didn't get rid of my black heads, I wore too much makeup, I didn't wear any makeup, my acne was funny...the list continues.

Through upper school and sixth form the words may have changed but the impact did not. Despite now feeling I wouldn't be where I am today without the pain, it still does not change the fact that it happened.

2018 was the year I decided to embrace "SELF LOVE" - accepting myself for who I am despite all my "flaws". I should be happy with the way I am and the way I am made, because I am the product of two wonderful parents, and I am made to be exactly who I am.

Self love to me is about embracing every part of yourself. It is about realising you shouldn't have to change to fit someone else's ideals or criteria. If someone loves you (and truly loves you) then they should love you for who you are, and not what you aren't. I don't let my scars define me, so why should I let my body define me?

I am truly inspired by BODYPOSIPANDA as she has exactly the right idea. She says -
You do not have to spend your life chasing weight loss. You do not have to punish yourself smaller. You do not have to put your life on hold until you can look in the mirror and see a body that you believe is worthy of being out in the world. You have ALWAYS been worthy of that.
and I honestly believe in that. I AM worthy. I am worthy of love, I am worthy of acceptance, I am worthy of self love.

As I was writing this post, a good friend of mine Kirsty posted a new video on her YouTube about this very subject matter - about loving yourself first. You can find that video HERE.

It doesn't matter what form my self love comes in. I am ready to accept myself for who I am, what I am and how I am.


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3 comments

  1. You truly are amazing, I hope you know that x

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  2. We went to six form together and i must admit i always thought you looked great. I used to compare myself to you a little because i hated how i looked and thought id be better of with a body like yours. Youre amazing! And i hope you know that people love the way you look. The most important thing is for you to love yourself as you said

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  3. Such a great post! It made me quite emotional. You are worthy and deserve an abundance of love in every way and form and are beautiful just as you are xx

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